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AnonymousHai. (:
I've been crying all day. For a lot of days now. I wish I could articulate how I feel. I wish I just didn't feel it anymore. I feel so trapped inside myself. I can't talk about it with anyone because they either might think I'm just being dramatic or think I want attention or maybe force me to see someone... so I just hold it in and do my best but... I'm so tired. I feel so alone. People always so to do something; change something about your life, go somewhere new. I did those things. I'm doing those things and it doesn't help. Everywhere I go, there I am. There with all the same feelings and the misery and the emptiness. The truth is that I'm a very broken person. I've made bad decisions, I've made mistakes, I've been hurt. While other people seem to just bounce back, though, I'm just... I'm not normal. Nothing helps me feel any better. I'm so unhappy and sitting here admitting all this to you, anonymously, just makes me realize how lame I am even on the surface. Even if I was beautiful, which I don't think I am, or famous or rich... even if I had anything I wanted, I still don't think I would be happy. This isn't the depression where I think if I slit my wrist maybe it will make me feel better. To me, that's ignorance. I know better than that. I'm not a stupid girl. I know that suicide is the most selfish thing one can do and I know it wouldn't be fair to the people around me, but its not enough. I want, more than anything, to just give up. I want to cease to exist, stop feeling and just... sleep. Forever. And yes, I do believe in God and I don't want to go to Hell or anything like that, but where is He? Why is he letting me suffer this way? I would give anything...anything to be free from these dark feelings inside of me. I love people so much that my heart bursts even at the thought of losing them, so that when I do actually lose them, its unbearable. Not in a romantic sense, but in a ...well, I love you as a person and we've never even met. I sincerely care for you. I genuinely wish you could have all your dreams come true. And someone that feels these things so powerfully...its impossible. Its pain. I can't bear these burdens on my soul any longer. There's no relief. I hate myself and how I feel and everything I've done wrong. I just wanted to admit all of this in case I really do die tonight. Thank you for being a listener, even though I'm sure you wish that I had picked some other ask.
AnonymousAlright sweetheart. I want you to listen to me. I’m not all that great with advice, and I don’t know exactly how you feel right now, but I do know someone who knows exactly what you’re going through. If you follow my other blog, then you’ll know him. His name is Matt. You can find his blog by clicking this link. He helps me out whenever I get depressed and I want to end it all. I promise you that you’ll feel better after talking to him. He’s amazing at listening as well. Really, just go and talk to him.
Also, I’m glad you picked my ask box. Thank you. It truly means a lot to me. You might want to start off by putting this in his inbox. I already talked to him about it, and he said he’d be more then happy to help you out.
Good luck, and know that I’m always here for you.
xoxo.
put the ask back on the normal bloggggggg :(
It wasn’t me, it just quit working for some reason. Sorry for the inconvenience dear.
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lol, so I really like your blog, just wanna say. it's simple and funny,,, and not blowing my dash up with porn every two seconds!!(: lol, keep 'em coming!
Awww. Thanks! :’)
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Can you do me a favor and ask me a question in my ask box for my question and answer video. I really want to do it but I don't have enough questions. It can be any question you ask. It would mean alot and bonus the people who ask are getting promoted:)
Can you do me a favor and ask me a question in my ask box for my question and answer video. I really want to do it but I don't have enough questions. It can be any question you ask. It would mean alot and bonus the people who ask are getting promoted:)
Yea, no problem! :D
but… you don’t have to promote me. :P
